But lost in the inside

2010-05-10T13:56:00.001+08:00

i dont want to live anymore

this is hurting me

2010-05-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

DOWN
WITH
LOVE

2010-04-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

i love china

11 days have come to an end

no doubt i have enjoyed it except the part of one of my grp mate
which made me so furious
she freakingly lied to me but im not going into details

i love the people there, who is so warm and friendly
not only that the beautiful big school
some food which taste good, becos most of the food i tasted is salty

the shopping part is great
but sadly i didnt 'spam!' haha!

not forgetting buying pocky
i like the blueberry flavour
i think banana taste great as well

and i wont forget my friends who is there with me
jinghua valarie hadley shaun liangsheng

the 38 of us

2010-03-24T11:35:00.001+08:00

i need you in my life
very much

2010-03-18T11:40:00.002+08:00

im sick for few days already and it has been a torture. :(
sadly, i miss my girls outing on tues too!

and yesterday, i wasnt able to go for my enrichment classes
with my classmates! i wanted to go badly de.
haish!

2010-03-12T18:08:00.002+08:00

Some days are harder than others.

Some days I cant even think.

Some days I cant even leave my bed.

Some days I feel like giving up.

Some days are okay.

Some days I dont even cry.

Some days I dont miss you as much.

Some days I dont need to fake a smile.

Some days I almost feel happy again.

Some days I know I will be okay.

2010-01-01T15:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2010 EVERYONE!

this year would be an exciting year and definately smooth sailing year too.

anyway, im back from my thailand trip once again.
and im gonna say its isnt as nice as bkk, yeah, but i enjoyed it still:
because first thing first: i've nice family members.
they are my best pillar of support and they made me laugh/smile a lot.
heheh.
so this trip spent with them was awesome.

yesterday, was the last day of 2009!
and i spent with my favourite girls:
wenyi, maylin, irene and shi ting!
saw shi ting while we were walking in orchard ion and asked her to join us.
hahah, hope you will spent the last day of 2010 with us again okay?
and study hard in monash uni this year!! wink.
this year countdown was something special, because im not celebrating with my family.
but overall, the fun is still there!

alright.
2010x0x0

2009-12-25T16:03:00.002+08:00

Hey people!
im back from my bkk trip and i enjoyed it much!
so highlight of the trip of the 4 days is just shopping and eating!

oh, and i had my first massage in my whole life.
and i thought it was quite good.
although i had the thoughts of massaging to be painful and ewwish.
however, outcome was okish! good!

yes love da shopping in bkk!!
chatuchak was like biggest whole market of cheap things,
clothings, accessories, and anything u can find there.
and i shopped there for 2 days before shopping finish the 'clothes' part.
secondly, platinium centre was also thumbs up.
like wholesale market, somewhat like bugis street, but got aircon.

those 4 days are really one of a kind, and i personally think its like one of my
best holiday?

love thailand ttm!

so back in spore days were boraaang, as usual.
ytd, i had christmas party with my family + aunt colleages.
it wld be so much better if its only 'family'. yea.

just wondering if those thoughts ever trigger your mind:

okay, for me, i dont like people to comment so much on me if they dont know me well.
like who are you to say those mean things to me hur?
if you are gonna say some nice stuffs, still ok la.
okay, let me ask you this:
how wld you feel if people say 'youre fat' if they see you the first time?
how wld you react? give dumb expressions, or how?
if the person who commented on you was yr close friend, its still alright.
but first time people?
yes, it is the same, very same, it means the same, who comments on 'youre skinny'.
okay, maybe to you, you like it, however everyone thinks differently,
so think before you speak.

Who are you, who are you, to comment on people. -.-

this is just some random thoughts ok,so cheers everyone.

oh yea, this is not the reason for me to be sad about.
and im not sad, smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-12-05T21:47:00.001+08:00

ughhhssssss. how come i so stupid lei....
sob sob.

2009-11-26T10:42:00.000+08:00

Wait for the person who pursues you,
the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical,
the kind of person who brings out the best in you
and makes you want to be a better person;

Wait for the person who will be your best friend,
the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time
no matter what the circumstances,
for the person who makes you smile like no one else
and when they smile you know they need you.

Wait for the person who wants to show you off
to the world when you are in sweats and a t-shirt,
but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them.

And most of all wait for the person who will put you at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong.

2009-11-24T17:07:00.002+08:00

dunno why my body is so weak!
i need to visit the docs again, this time i had fever and headache
for quite a number of days le.
pls let me recover, i want to be healthy.

jp: you comment saying that 'why sooo sad de...' hor.
where got..
im v happy, everyday also v happy.
who say i not happy de ahhxxxx, im smiling k.
and im not sad, and wont be sad, "keep smiling keep going"!

2009-11-21T21:15:00.005+08:00

2009 is a year of ups and downs.
09 is going end, and im waiting for it cos trips are waiting for me!
hope it wld be fun, and enjoying yoo!

so this year, what have i achieved so far?
till date, like nothing?

-hmm.
lets see.

working in dy.
celebrated wy birthday, steamboat in bugis.
one of the best cny ive gone thru so far.
celebrated ic birthday, at sakae sushi.
big 18th, enjoyed myself with my family!
and not forgetting celebrating with friends. love you all.
plus also ml birthday, baker innzzzzzzzz cake.
poly starts.
got to know new friends.
jap class, got to know 2 good friends there!
doing projects and mugging for exams.
spending lots of time on crs.
stressed up with life.
didnt go to australia in july to celebrate my sis bdae.
made good friends, and lose some.
6 weeks of holidays.
working in leong dental.
hospitalized for around 7 hours in A&E and i took this horrible jab.
shifted house.
hated school.
being indepedent.
wanted to be a studious student but failed miserably.
laughter and sobber.
been to quite a number flea.
went into the same gem with wy.
give jiaping a 'high' birthday.
lagged behind modules.

yup!
i think i have left out some, but roughly.... like this.

as you know, some things are always remembered, like for life.
i can remember quite a number of memorable stuffs and some are kind
of a hindrance to me.
i wont forget those time spend with my friends in xinmin.
my good friends, wy ml ic.
i wont forget those time when my friends and i are in sentosa
and yc got drunk and the whole process of it.
it really frightens me, and yea still remembering it.
i wont forget those time when childish things happen,
like having crushes, and the outcome of it.
thinking of it, it makes me wanna laugh.
i wont forget those times playing computer games,
like some addict.
i wont forget those times when i quarrel with my friends,
when we forgive but i think not forget.
i wont forget those times going to 4t1 chalet, when i was in sec 1,
thus getting to know jenna, james, wilson etc.
i wont forget those times when i went to see discipline master,
due to cases like: losing hp in school,
i wont forget those times when we are in malaysia, muar,
with all of the 5Ns.
all the stuffs that i did, some are worth remembering but some are not.
well there are others more things happening.
lastly, i also wont forget 2008 prom night, one of the fab night
i had with you girls, and also the guys.

2009-11-19T18:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIU JIAPING! (:

hope you had a fun time in school
and bet you have a memorable 17th!

2009-11-15T23:13:00.001+08:00

okay im really stupid.
thinking of things that arent realistic and wont be happening.
im really damn foolish, stupid and all the words to describe.
i might as well die

2009-11-10T18:20:00.001+08:00

life is terrible
life is indeed terrible
life very terrible

2009-11-08T12:07:00.002+08:00

Anyway, time to update (:

whole family of 14 headed to desaru yesterday, rlly enjoying
and had loads of fun with everyone, except those people who are
in the same coach as us. They are totally unfriendly type,
and only know how to black face people. :/

itineraries were: breakfast at JB, london roll factory,
ostrich farm, fruit farm, lunch @ some places, brown biscuits factory,
shopping @ jusco, another shopping @ some places, dinner @ a restaurant,
and lastly, fireflies boat trip (:

Had fun, but really tiring cos i woke up at 4am plus, and only reach
singapore around 12am in the morning.

Alright, need to do some of my proj things already.

2009-11-06T20:07:00.002+08:00

haiz. i'm very tired........
of everything.
just pretend i dont exist anymore
or just vanish into some places ok?
i dont wish to................do anything anymore

2009-11-06T13:10:00.002+08:00

ROUND UP EVERYTHING! :

so everyday has been home,school and than home.
no life, but seriously my life has been that boring. :/

this week got spss test and IDEA presentation.
i think i did both badly lei, hahah.
and life is terribleeeeeee
cos i got 3 projects on hand right now,
and they are untouch.

need to do my fom project
need to do my gems project
need to do my baue project

no time no time too lazy too lazy to start.

2009-10-30T18:08:00.003+08:00

Its FRIDAY! (:
finally have been waiting for this day every week
because i wanna have long sleep for next day, need to replenish my sleep
if not too tired to do anything.

today java for 4 hours, super long :/
and got break for 3 hours, doing nothing also.

and papa fetch me home after school today :D

2009-10-29T15:50:00.003+08:00

now having some kind of stupid lesson, so boring.
hahaha!

anyway, i want to go and remake my library card asap
cos i want to borrow this book 'goodnight beautiful'.
read a part of it while waiting yesterday and ha-ha-ha,
i think i like it, quite a bit (:

tmr is friday, lets shout 'thank god its friday!'
but tmr will be going to be a sucky day
becos got 4 hours of java! imagine it, from 8am to 12pm!
totally madness lo!

so yesterday, had gems in the afternoon and everybody is crazy.
they dont want to talk to each other, and my group is the worst of the worst
cos nobody wants to do anything and they are not happy with the ideas
given by me and my friend. ):
sob.
headed down to orchard road after that, hahahah
and chow bought rubi shoes!
now my aim: i wanna get a denim jackety.
hehehe.

p/s: today lecture at MLT8 was so colddd.
freeze-to-death kind. luckily only 1 hour if not my blood will turn to ice?
okay.

byebye!

2009-10-27T13:23:00.002+08:00

today is tuesday.
lesson is from 10am to 5pm.
am having 2 hours of break now, and im so bored.
just finish copying my marketing notes, :)

my sisters keeper is a nice show, if you havent read the story book
i think its good :D

Jiaping so irritating right now, she loves yellow in colour
so i call her 'banana'.
HAHA okay byebye:)

2009-10-24T11:53:00.003+08:00

first week of school is finally over. (:
this week has been really good cos most of the teachers let us off early,
heheh.

and im recovering from my sickness already.
getting better each day. hahah.
hmm.

okay byebye:-D

2009-10-21T21:21:00.003+08:00

im feeling much better after taking a few days rest.
whee, so today is my first day of sem 2 in school.
haha.
and my very first gem lesson with chow!
damn, some of the classmates are one kind of joker man.
laugh until cannot take it, omg. hahah.

dont feel like going to school lei.

2009-10-19T20:22:00.002+08:00

after being sick for 2 days now im sick again
how sad. this time round is much worser cause im feeling so giddy.
like as if my whole house is spinning.
and totally like no appetite to eat anything, afterall, the food will not be
digested and vomited out again.
sighs.

doctor gave me 3 days of mc.

2009-10-17T13:52:00.004+08:00

browsing through my baby photos, totally make me laugh
dunno why ah, as times goes by, people are turning prettier
but as i see the photo of mine, like uglier lei.
hahah. last time eyes so big now become so small. sigh 1
last time so cute now not cute anymore. sigh 2
last time so chubby and loveable, now opposite. sigh 3

sem 2 hasnt started yet
however i cant wait to sem 2 holidays which is in dec.
i cant wait to my holiday!!
im going to thai!
im screaming for it already.

2009-10-14T18:04:00.002+08:00

im a happy girl cos mom bought yougurts for me to eat. :)
love the strawberry flavour one.

however!! things arent good either.
got fever and flu, been resting for one day at home and feeling weak all over
boo.
pls make me recover as soon as possible. ):

happier note, chow and me got into the same gem class!
wooho. happy girl.

2009-10-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

I want you to sing to me. I want you to give me hugs when I least expect it, and whisper into my ear so that one spot on my left hip tickles. I want you to hold my hand and have your fingertips linger on top of mine. I want you to grab my legs with your legs so I have to wrestle them out. I want you to give me piggy back rides, or the other way around, seeing how you’re little. I want you to whisper little secrets into my ear and trust me with your life. I want you to give me your sweater when I’m cold, and put your arm over my shoulder so everyone knows that I’m yours. I want you to want me. I want you to sit and snuggle with me. I want to play hide and seek with you, and freeze tag, and manhunt. I want to run while holding your hand. I want to act like a little kid with you. I want you to want to be next to me, and find excuses to do so. I want you to wake up in the morning and think, “hey, maybe I should call her.” I know I’m not the most gorgeous person in the world, but I want you to tell me that I’m beautiful, and mean it. I want you to throw me into the pool, your pool. I want you to muss up my hair and when it’s curly I want you to play with the rings. I want you to compliment me when I least expect it. I want you to meet my eye when you’re talking to somebody else, and smile. I want you to make the first move, god dammit. I want you to put your hand on the little part of my waist, and let me nuzzle against your shoulder. I want you to share half your sandwich with me when my parents refuse to give me any more lunch money. I want to listen to your iPod with you, and do my awkward little dance, and lip sing with you. I want you to make me a ring out of that hundred dollar bill. I want to build a fort with you. I want to live my life with you. I want you to always be there when I need you. I need you. I do.

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2009-10-06T23:21:00.002+08:00

i thought i cld trust you............i dont know why either. have i seen something which i shouldnt? i dont know... it makes my mind spinning round and round. so upset... it has been more than once since i have seen such stuffs... they have hurt me inside, really deep.. today have been a good girl staying at home. havent pack much stuffs yet.. my lazy bones cant get to move or maybe cant get things right... but i promise i will do packing tmr to make myself busy so i wont feel sad anymore... im shifting the next day which is thursday, right now, i dont know why...im looking forward to shift...perhaps i need this new environment... and some companion to talk to me at home. i'm really bored.. facing those white cement wall everyday makes me so sick... let me do some shopping too... sighs... i dont know why im typing such a long chuck of words... let me see, school is starting real soon and im not looking forward. i hate school......... but besides that, my whole life is even more boring without school. ok, no link. i hate this cruel world... sighs... sad... oh yea, mom assigned me some task to do tmr, so i get a head start, going to throw all those clothes and pack those medicine.. okay. havent been doing much lately except sleeping, slept almost the whole day today. love sleeping cos it really kills time, i hope when i wake up the next time it is in the morning, oh plsssssssssss.... :( i dont wish to wake up in the early morning like 4am.. and not feeling sleepy and thinking about all sorts of things in my mind again... its really torturing..... okay. so lonely. so sad... got a lot of things to make me ponder about, why is it happening right at this moment.. WHYYHHHHH..... haiz... to add on i saw just something which i shouldnt haveeee, stupid me. it adds on to my wounded heart.. haiz... seeing all those words ive type i think i got some mental illness... maybe some depression... okay. sad... going to lye on my comfy bed right now........ hope there is stars in the sky... so that it would be seeing me sleep tonight... my nose is blocked.. i cant breathe properly.. im not that sleepy yet actually... let me help my mom do some packing first... but before that, im going to have a deep breath, put one one wide smile =D and do some cleaning and wiping to my eyes.. its watery. and very red. goodbye, at least im feeling a wee bit of better now typing like rubbish here... hope no one bothers to read everything that ive written... and have a wonderful night to me.

2009-10-05T14:26:00.003+08:00

totally dont feel like shifting at all!!
too lazy to move my lazy bones to pack up and clear away all those
unwanted stuffs.
leave it till the last minute and i'll just go.
thats all.

cant be bothered.
too lazy.
and leave me alone i hate you

2009-10-01T23:08:00.003+08:00

love cheap cheap stuffs from bugis!! (:
so today i went there, and my whole hand is full of plastic bags.
heheh. didnt went to fep in the end. next week instead!

Ohyea. im shifting house next week!
its really a fast decision made, omg im shifting!!!
okay need to pack everything in a fast manner.
my books and my clothings!!!
and definately my whole collection of ernie is going with me!
say bye bye to my old house... (:

2009-09-29T21:46:00.003+08:00

i am sad i am disappointed.
i am tired i dont know what to say to you.
in the end, as i have said in early days, you would choose your friends
over me. you would. and im in the second. wrong again.
im the third.
so whats the point of living inside your world......
i am neglected
i dont know what else to say
alone. this word doesnt scare me anymore...
it would be my partner after all.......afterall...

LIVE LEARN CHERISH
i hope you will learn to cherish
dont learn to cherish when its too late.......

2009-09-28T23:21:00.003+08:00

went to the chalet today, was okay quite fun! (:
hahah. played monopoly first
and later cycle in the double bicycle!
cycle to the horse stable to smell horses' poo only.

and after had dinner at fish & co.
back home already.
heading back tmr again!
secondary school mates still the best, totally imba!

im getting hook into eating sushi lately.
love it.

2009-09-27T22:38:00.003+08:00

such a boring day today,
family all went to malaysia and i didnt go.
cos i know it wld be boring, as usual same old stuffs and same old places.
but luckily i didnt go!
cos aunt was like choosing mooncake till very long! hahah.

this mini exclusive is not so bad. quite kind the things actually. (:

2009-09-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

just came home with a bloated tummy.
had buffet at the hotel windsor just now.
i think its cheap and good, definately worth the price paying.
15bucks per person! (:

i saw the most beautiful handphone on earth ;)

2009-09-24T21:08:00.001+08:00

just came back home from my ah ma house,
after eating my dinner at there.

wish that someone could cook for me everyday!
life would be great yeah.
hahah.

2009-09-23T20:14:00.002+08:00

well, nothing to say.
im back home already. (:
hope everything is fine, and i need to go for further observation by doctor.
my arm is slightly pain cos of the injection, kept whinning just now.
anyway! thanks for accompany me and standing through 3 to 4 hours
waiting for me. big kisses and huggies to you. (:

results are out today!
wasnt really looking forward to this day, cos i know i will do like badlyyyy.
however, didnt expect that i got good results!!
happy, really glad. :D

2009-09-21T10:48:00.000+08:00

2009-09-20T17:34:00.006+08:00

yesterday have to wake up early in the morning to pray
for my grandpa, times passes damn fast dont you agree, just in the
blink of eyes its his 3rd year of death anni.

cousin is also back after like 1 and a half month of sailing
out in the sea to different countries.
he bought many things, so many diff kinds of other countries of maggie
and authentic polo tees and i love mine, cos black rock. (:
cant believe that he saw this hugey ernie that is almost his size
and it costs one hundred over bucks(convert to spore dollars)
I want it!!!! can you see this? Now, fly back plzzzzz :(

heheh. after that headed to tanah merah mrt station,
dont know why am i late!!! cannot be!
had a great time with you, as always :D

love your family and love yourself:)

2009-09-18T14:03:00.002+08:00

spending money is no no good...
i think this month i have spent more than what i've earned!!
damn sad.

anyway, i'll update more on twitter. (:
so..read my twitter for more updates ya!

2009-09-16T23:12:00.001+08:00

oh man, this suck really.

2009-09-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

dont know why this few days stomach not digesting my food
always feel very full depsite eating lesser than my normal meals
maybe i had a very full lunch everyday
and my stomach became very full and not able to eat
in the night, so now my dinner is just bread.
for like a couple of days already!! what happen!

today weather so hot,
go everywhere also sweat.
now feeling tired also. okay, i think work the best.
time passes quite quickly and my mom is the best mom on earth
cos she always deliver my lunch to me, and thats before 1pm.
love the near distance my mom and me is working. (:

2009-09-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

feeling very tired.
worked sucked. hahah.
i just wanna go out, and out, and shop, and shop. (:

my stomach is like bloated with a lot of water.
okay, i type money at first, lol
cos my mind is thinking of shopping thus money.
hahah!

2009-09-13T11:13:00.002+08:00

i want to go suntec on weekdays
for the porridge buffet,only 9.80 bucks. (:

yesterday, go comex IT fair with my mom
so crowded man.
so we left soon after we have bought our things
and headed to citylink.
had thai express and i think the food is quite good.

i wanna go shopping @ ion. (:

2009-09-12T12:22:00.005+08:00

early morning make me so angry only.
you think this holidays i so free ah.
i also need to have rest one lo.
6weeks to you maybe a lot, but to me is like finger-counting days only.
just to tell you, i need a lot a lot of days to rest
cos im like so worned-out before the holidays cos of school?

do you even understand that?

keep on ask me to work only
you think i dont want to earn money?
who dont want right, tsk.
and who is the world think that by just earning that sum of money
i am rich. totally madness can.
i am not, for the final say.
and do you know how many days have i worked, and how many hours
have i clogged up?
only earn like 100bucks plus.
can spend till where?
to you, school holidays mean work to me, is NOT.
it is the time for me to rest. ok a not?
work so big deal meh, everyone keep talking about it.
whats more is that, i tell you i got not enough rest, bcos
sem 2 would be a tedious and tiring term for me,
you laugh and say, 'you must be joking'.
make me blood boil only, you think study so easy than you come and take my position.
working this month may help fund my own pocket money,
but i need to slog thru like a bull to work and let my health derioriate?
is it worth the money earned?

dont know why everyone seems to be so simple-minded thinking
this few days.
working does not make me rich.
and its me, to decide, not you alright, to tell me when should i work.
this working problems make me so frustrated.
its my studying time line of my life, so i dont want to work ok?
keep on saying what i throw princess tantrums than dont want to continue work,
you're mad ok.
u're just the 3rd party just to listen to my daily working life,
so u shouldnt comment on this, and laugh over this.
whats so funny ah.

2009-09-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

damn tired after working today
i think i called like countless number of patients
and so many of them rejected coming to the dentist.
so irritating.

hahah.
where is my mail!!!:(

2009-09-10T09:46:00.000+08:00

seriously,i hate people who are serious,
like no sense of humour!
isnt it like so hard to talk to each other,
and creating a barrier towards each other?

that is why i cant be bothered about you anymore
talking to you is such a pain.
and this is just a small little note to you:
everyone talks differently, if u just hate the way
people talk, den u can just talk to the wall -.-
cos i believe most of the people would talk like that,
only YOU are the one who doesnt like it
and hello you are the one who is weird lo.

crazy.

2009-09-09T11:19:00.000+08:00

have been busy for this two days.
cos im working with chw in the dentist! (:
i can tell you, some patients are totally omg, one of the staff also totally totally OMG.

so after working for two days
today is my rest day ay
tmr would be also
i wanna go out hehehe

where is my sandy?

2009-09-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

i wanna shop, hop, run!
):

2009-09-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

Sandy, :D

to honour you
to pamper you
to care for you
to comfort you
to love you in sickness or in health
to hold you
to miss you
to be your eyes when you cant see
to be your legs when you cant walk
to be your hand when you lose your touch
to be your ear when you cant hear
to be in your heart forever
and you to be in my heart forever

this is a agreement
not a promise

2009-09-05T14:17:00.003+08:00

It was mom's off day yesterday! (:
so it was a day of shopping with her and she went to recontract her phone line.

so happy, i've got about 6weeks of holidays
so im gonna start planning.
i hope this holidays could be extended to a year or more.
hahah, sure not enough of days to rest.

anyway, life is short.
so dont take things for granted.
treasure everything while you can.
although saying this word 'treasure' could be easy.
how many of a times have you take things for granted?
i have, many.
how many of a times have you appreciate someones effort?
i have, but not many.
appreciate everything you've in life,
be it a chance to study, or anything else
and when you've made a promise, fufill it, dont make empty promises.

is it a bad feeling?

2009-09-03T20:12:00.002+08:00

you'll come across so many people in your life. Ones you think will stay in your life, stay with you forever. You come across people you will love, very much.

very very much. (:

2009-09-03T10:05:00.001+08:00

Haiz
dont know why always get that feeling.
it makes my blood boil or maybe make my heart ache.

this time im speechless
u are different, so much different
maybe thats the part which i dont understand

i thought it would be o-k

2009-08-31T17:16:00.000+08:00

i will be there for you always
never gonna back out
really

i cant do anything but just to know hw are you doing
i want to hear from you soon
i miss you v much

2009-08-29T00:10:00.002+08:00

in this world can we ever get this word 'fairness'?
nothing is fair i understand
but sometimes things that you do have been gone overboard

you already have all the things that you ask for
what more do you want
why cant people just be contented with what they have
just take one person whom i know for example
'you have what you wanted, u should be happy, instead
of asking for more, and as for me, i dont even have what i want'
do i ask much? do i grumble? no
most of the things that i really need/want is always he who
buy it for me.
i really appreciate everything. :)

things are better not to be said.
somethings are just hurting
children are the best at remembering things,dont forget(:

indeed, my whole 18 years of life
what i get is by achieving good things in life
and not by person
to that wonderful someone,
1year of unconditional love towards me has been one of the greatest
thing i have ever received so far, thank you so much
for putting so much trust in me and making sure i wasnt giving up
in my studies i love you very much

2009-08-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

Name: tan yan ling
Date: 8/28/2009
Colorgenics Number: 46521307

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It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

accurate, very very accurate

2009-08-28T12:29:00.000+08:00

after listening to your craps, i think u are the one who is different
from others, and not other humans.
you think differently, not us.
so mentally disturbed by your words, ugh
anyway, you can keep your mouth shut first
instead. gdbye.

2009-08-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

two down, two more to go
im anticipating for holidays already

whahaha

2009-08-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

i dont plan to say anything which is unnecessary
totally spoil my day when talking to you
im living in my own world and so are you

2009-08-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

2009-08-23T17:55:00.001+08:00

2009-08-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

cos i dont even want to hear, i dont even want to see,
i hate hearing what is happening to you

im living in my own world
i am afraid of hearing things that would let my tears fall

friends? i doubt so
best friends? not anymore
good friends? haha no more

2009-08-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

SO MUCH THINGS TO DO SO LITTLE TIME
i want to have more time

imissyou

2009-08-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

why ur heart is always so evil?
stop thinking that you are the centre of the attraction
so everyone would obey you.
think for others, self-centered queen..
not everyone thinks the same.

just count yrself lucky

2009-08-13T23:49:00.001+08:00

do you realize that all i ever see is...........just you

sob

2009-08-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

so angry
i dont want to talk to you le la.
shld have known u are always like that,no change!

2009-08-07T23:18:00.001+08:00

where'd you go
i miss you so.....

2009-08-04T18:35:00.001+08:00

i dont know what to say i dont know what to say
why does it turn out to be like this
pls. dont be like this okokkkkk.

comeon

2009-08-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

Sunny sunday.
went to st james power station today, haha.
my first visit there, and i bought quite a number of things
over there. hehe.

and halfway thru, my hp batt flat.
so i couldnt contact anyone. thousands sad smiles.
boo.

i want to be in paris.

2009-08-01T12:16:00.001+08:00

times flies, without us knowing rlly.
its so good to read back all archives and giggling at all
the silly things that i do in secondary school days.
i,definately,had made more than one true friend. (:

im really sorry:(
i dont know what else to say.
thats the final goodbye. final.

2009-07-30T10:40:00.003+08:00

"Hello"
"Can we talk"
"How are you"
"I miss you"

a big mistake? or just something small which i shouldnt flare up?
i dont know................................
but i bet anybody one who see it dont feel good either..........
u have gone overboard this time round

2009-07-29T15:59:00.002+08:00

i dont feel like hearing from you yet again
make me so disappointed
i trust you for nothing

can i get to know u again?

2009-07-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

dont u dare to disturb me right now
im so pissed off!!!!!!!!!!
GET LOST AND DONT APPEAR INFORNT OF ME RIGHT NOW

2009-07-27T17:58:00.001+08:00

rushed through my individual report for onow yesterday
so last minute work, but at least i managed to complete it somehow or rather
but what makes me so upset was i forgotten to bring it to school today
what a muddlehead i am, urgh.

i got kinder surprise, its has been such a long time
since i have eaten one.

5 penguins is looking at me right now
got to go

2009-07-23T09:27:00.003+08:00

i think harry potter and the half blood prince is actually not bad
and my hp batt flat yesterday so no one was able to get me
got a lot of miss calls from my uncle, sis text....
they are unable to get me :(

this semester so busy
got so much of assignments to do
and havent complete a lot of them, feel like stabbing myself already
there are like so many quizzes on next week
i am so busy

moody

2009-07-20T15:54:00.001+08:00

its day 3 since i am alone
but days passed really fast cos im really enjoying myself during the weekends
on saturday, i went out with chow darling
and i ate my favourite food, the chicken la mian, yam bun and layered cake. ;)

hehee.
sunday was also good.

i want to enjoy my life
i want to be happy
i want to wish my sis a happy early 21st birthday

2009-07-19T11:27:00.008+08:00

put the unhappiness behind
i promise thats the last and no more of it
i will drag myself to do it even its gonna take my whole life doing it

2009-07-19T11:27:00.004+08:00

put the unhappiness behind
i promise thats the last and no more of it
even if i become weak
i will drag myself to do it even its gonna take my whole life doing it

2009-07-18T22:10:00.003+08:00

i had a very sad friday
esp during stats tutorial..like im gonna break down v soon
but the decision on going to jap class was definately worthwhile:)
i had a great laugh with my partner,vic
so long didnt laugh with my heart out! muahaha!

i find this extremely meaningful.

people come into my life for a reason, a season or a life time.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that
person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

}thanks ml for this mail!
} i appreciate everyone of you, all of my friends!
thanks for being part of my life.
i love you:D

2009-07-17T10:26:00.005+08:00

i feel so sad all over again
i hate having emotions especially sad emotions, who doesnt right..
its like emotions taking over my brain
i hate studying since i dont understand most of what all the teachers have taught
like really nothing i dont know i cant absorb everything into my brain either
its so stressful

its yet again my hatest day of the week,friday
9-7.30pm at school, sucha long period of time in school
but time again i have reminded myself the next day
would be saturday so..just bear with it

i get so paranoid easily

mom is leaving for aus tonight and i wont be going
i will not board the plane
i will be a staying at home to study
i am in singapore
oh....well.....

i dont feel any excitement unlike before
i think you are over-exaggerating

oh tell me why

2009-07-16T22:17:00.001+08:00

so stressful..
why i dont understand a single thing..omg..
not a single thing i have understood..

i am very sad

2009-07-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

Good night world,
tonight is a lonely night and tearing night. ):

2009-07-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

so sad, not able to go to aus cos of my packed schedule.
next week there are like plenty of things going on
and like i cant miss any of them?
gonna be home alone and independent woman.
one week is going to breeze through really fast. hehe.

somehow im gld that i have made such a decision
cos i know im right and you are so detestable
i dont want to see you either haha

happy birthday to you \m/

2009-07-12T22:12:00.005+08:00

pls pls pls tell me what should i do now, i need everyones answer!
yes, very in need):

2009-07-11T22:47:00.001+08:00

I felt happy. and nothing else. :D
its like.......best feelings ive ever had!

can you feel it?

2009-07-11T12:56:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-11T10:20:00.001+08:00

you'll be ok, but it takes time.
):
i hate fridays.

i find it really suspicious, hmm, your actions do tell me something
about you. so now is it you, or someone who has the same name
as you? if its you, than be brave!
hahah! uhg, i still find it very suspicious.

2009-07-09T22:03:00.003+08:00

FML.
OH GET THE FACTS RIGHT.
I Didnt demand for anything which I need.
I DIDNT DEMAND IT.
I MERELY, YES MERELY SAID i NEED to get it.
need is not equals to = WANT.
I DIDNT DEMAND FOR IT.
DONT ANYHOW ANYHOW PASS MESSAGE,
your life so free ah? everytime gossip one.
too free? work too free?
i repeat for the last time I DIDNT DEMAND for it.
keysiao one ley. everytime hear this kind of news make me so pekchek.

2009-07-08T22:28:00.003+08:00

Why let small things affect your emotion? :D
yeah?
i believe things would have its own way, and eventually it will alright.
im so down today, all things that had affected me someway or another..
im so sad.
right now i said this to make myself feel better however
2seconds later, i would feel completely different.
life is always so unfair, :(

im like the one who always bring troubles to you,
im sorry! :(
but thanks for e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g, really everything.
you are great.

mah lips is dry again, after drinking plenty cups of water.
i need h20!

2009-07-07T18:13:00.002+08:00

Im gonna have Wednesday Wishes, and Sunday inspiration.
hehee.

im munching on raisins biscuit right now,its so deeeelicious.

2009-07-05T16:10:00.000+08:00

2009-07-04T11:29:00.005+08:00

Badnote: to my lovely sis.

I dont like making decisions.
sometimes, its feels like its really easy coming into a final decision
however luck doesnt always have to stay by your side thus you're in a dilemma
whereby you are stuck within 2 choices which eventually you would
have to crack your mind to think for yourself which choice do you prefer.

somehow or rather, this question popped back into my mind.
i was on firmed decision on whether to go aussie this july,
however due to h1n1, everything changed.
i have that eager heart to go, and i wanted to take a breather over at aussie
as my schedules are always packed and stuff, hence always wanting to play hard
before my exams.
oh yadaaaaa, and so with my uncatched-up work and studies and additional
influenza A which needs to be quarantine at home for roughly a week
which is like equals to two weeks, indeed hesistant to go right now.
why on earth did my exam dates so so close with my holiday trip?
downright pissing me off, this trip that made me look forward to since the start of
the year came crashing down like this. like this!

however, i wish things would be better if we could postpone it to after
my exams date which after i would have 5weeks of holidays, great right?
talk is easy. hahah!
but my lovely sis 21st birthday is on july, on yes now how? D:

i'm like in sucha lost state. :/

which path shall i take?

2009-07-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

read the messages i sent i've said it so clear and i waited for you so long and this is the final i get i waited yes i waited for nothing and yes good night i am so angry urgh no i am so disappointed and sad i dont know what am i feeling right now so mixed feelings urgh

2009-07-03T22:24:00.001+08:00

Last day of MST week. So happy la, i dont feel like touching my notes
nor books for a few days.

Hahah!
anyway, had a really heavy lunch today and i went to meet chow wenyi!
love the shop,walk and talk
and you! :D

Totally turned off by you, absolutely.
stop repeating the words i say, ihateit.

2009-06-30T23:36:00.001+08:00

I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.” Anais Nin

2009-06-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

fatigue, demin, temperature, dbms, sigh, tampines,
$178, 39, longride, hougang, distance, twitter, matrices,
transformer, m&b, purple-blue, xoxo, typing, hottttt

2009-06-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

cip, killer heels, bun, sleepy, black, dhoby ghuat, auntieannie,
parkmall, revengeofthetitans, towed, m&b, checkered,
bangles, flowery, raining, dbms, bigyawwwnnz

2009-06-27T21:32:00.004+08:00

finally!!!!!
manage to delete the file in my memory card.
its so stupid, cos i didnt see that the memory card is locked!
FTW FTW.

think of me, im trying hard to solve this stupid thing
and yet .....nvm. nth to say.
for yr info i need to wake up at 4am ok
and im still not sleeping at this hour
P

2009-06-27T21:24:00.002+08:00

hougang green, buddha jump over the wall, plain waffle, veeko,
70%, red bean ice, alteration, newspaper, laptop, tired, bedok,
barchormee, chickenwings, moodless, waiting, chipped nails, ernie,
camera, bread.

2009-06-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

my animal, not yours.

2009-06-26T21:51:00.002+08:00

My day is filled with love and i want more money please!

day out with my mom and had a great day out today!
plus plus things do really get too complicated.
i just dont seems to understand.

tmr will be focus day.
i need to study.at.home.