i thought i cld trust you............i dont know why either. have i seen something which i shouldnt? i dont know... it makes my mind spinning round and round. so upset... it has been more than once since i have seen such stuffs... they have hurt me inside, really deep.. today have been a good girl staying at home. havent pack much stuffs yet.. my lazy bones cant get to move or maybe cant get things right... but i promise i will do packing tmr to make myself busy so i wont feel sad anymore... im shifting the next day which is thursday, right now, i dont know why...im looking forward to shift...perhaps i need this new environment... and some companion to talk to me at home. i'm really bored.. facing those white cement wall everyday makes me so sick... let me do some shopping too... sighs... i dont know why im typing such a long chuck of words... let me see, school is starting real soon and im not looking forward. i hate school......... but besides that, my whole life is even more boring without school. ok, no link. i hate this cruel world... sighs... sad... oh yea, mom assigned me some task to do tmr, so i get a head start, going to throw all those clothes and pack those medicine.. okay. havent been doing much lately except sleeping, slept almost the whole day today. love sleeping cos it really kills time, i hope when i wake up the next time it is in the morning, oh plsssssssssss.... :( i dont wish to wake up in the early morning like 4am.. and not feeling sleepy and thinking about all sorts of things in my mind again... its really torturing..... okay. so lonely. so sad... got a lot of things to make me ponder about, why is it happening right at this moment.. WHYYHHHHH..... haiz... to add on i saw just something which i shouldnt haveeee, stupid me. it adds on to my wounded heart.. haiz... seeing all those words ive type i think i got some mental illness... maybe some depression... okay. sad... going to lye on my comfy bed right now........ hope there is stars in the sky... so that it would be seeing me sleep tonight... my nose is blocked.. i cant breathe properly.. im not that sleepy yet actually... let me help my mom do some packing first... but before that, im going to have a deep breath, put one one wide smile =D and do some cleaning and wiping to my eyes.. its watery. and very red. goodbye, at least im feeling a wee bit of better now typing like rubbish here... hope no one bothers to read everything that ive written... and have a wonderful night to me.